It seems to be my destiny to put effort into things that don’t matter to others. As my year working for Giant Search Engine Company comes to a close, it becomes clearer that they do not value the time and energy I spent trying to do an excellent job; that an ordinary or even a half-assed job would have been “rewarded” in exactly the same way.
It grieves me, in the same cranky middle-aged way that the middle-schoolers grieved me below. Maybe my values really are superannuated. Maybe I’m just feeling sorry for myself today.
If you’d done a half-assed job, would they have kept you for the 12 months? What would be nice is if they financially rewarded excellent jobs when the 12-month limit comes around. On the other hand, I am always baffled by (and envious of) people who know they have done a good job (and objective observation by third party later confirms that self assessment). I can tell I am doing a passable job because I haven’t been fired and child protective services have not shown up at my doorstep yet. But beyond that?
vhaecky
April 6th, 2008